I'm feeling increasingly helpless at work and unable to do any of what I am so wanting to get done. It is frustrating me and is starting to affect me. I know what needs to be done, but I need help to do it and that help is not often enough forthcoming. I had a dream the other morning before I woke. I met a man I once knew, and I linked my arm through his as we left the crowded bar together, but as we walked I realised that I was unable to keep pace and that if it weren't for the support of his arm I would have stopped. I looked down at my legs, willing them to work properly, but every step was laboured and I was only moving because I was being pulled along, although he didn't realise it. It's a while since I've had a dream like that. Sometimes I've had dreams where I have to pull myself along by my arms to get anywhere. Depending on the support of another is a new twist. And I wonder if it means I don't really know myself. All in all I prefer the dreams I have when I'm not feeling stunted and impotent. The ones where I can run freely and spin like a dancer. I can only hope that in time I will be able to have those dreams again.